As the year came to an end (in fact exactly a year from stopping work) I finally began to have the desire to do things again. The important thing was that my motivation was different. I wanted to, it wasn’t because I thought I ought to or because someone else had said I should. I began to volunteer at my sons’ primary school and in the process started to work on job applications. I was delighted to be offered a job but ironically it was full time and required being busier than I have been for many years. However, I have been amazed with how I actually have deeper inner reserves to juggle such a busy life and I believe that is because of the principals that I learnt in my rest year. I am continuing to learn and in particular how to “work at resting”. By that I mean I have to work hard to ensure I am disciplined to take time to rest and in the ways I need it. I have to plan ahead to book times away or evenings of pampering or solitude. It also requires working harder at other times to ensure I have a clearly defined time of rest when I can give myself permission, guilt free, to do what I need, and want to! I am still learning this and I don’t always get it right but I am quicker to recognise when I have got it wrong and put things in place to rectify the situation. Another helpful conversation with Kerry made me realise that there are certain times and seasons when I need to put different rest patterns in place. Reflecting on this over a year will help to be more prepared for next year to ensure I can weather those more challenging times.
In summary, the tools and skills I have learnt from my times with Kerry, both through our chats and from experiencing physical rest days at her home, have been invaluable. It has helped me to understand rest and myself more; why I find it hard at times whilst also gaining strategies for moving towards a more balanced lifestyle. I think a key expression has been “give yourself permission to rest”. So often in the past I felt guilty if I did something for myself. Actually, now I see that by being better rested I am able to give more of myself to others, so it just benefits everyone all round!
Thank you Kerry….you are amazing!!